Found this post from about 6 years ago =)

God has been so good to me and poured out his abundant blessings and grace upon me yet I have not been trusting in Him as I should. This revelation makes me very sad but also opens my eyes to what I need to focus on fixing.
It's pretty bad. Been missing a lot of work lately due to health and my boss said she needed to talk w me and to come in. I immediately jumped to conclusions and freaked out about losing my job. I forgot about last time I freaked out about a meeting w her and ended up w a raise. So I go in all worked up and she says she has noticed I'm missing a lot of work lately. I tell her I don't know if I can handle 48 hour shifts w my health lately. She agrees and says she will get someone in for one of the days so I only have a 24 hour shift. I could live on this much income so I feel at peace. So then later work calls and offers me two overnight shifts w another client and I can get sleep too. Well, turns out I would be making 400 dollars more a month than if I had been greedy and held onto my 48 hr shift despite my health! God is so good and he laid it on my heart all the supernatural things he's done for me lately and that I need to have much more faith in Him because He has never failed me! Amen! He has truely never failed me and will never fail me!
Just some of the amazing things he has done in the last few years are: everytime I go to a Doc for sickness, meds, etc. (at least 7 times now in the past couple years) I plan in my head on making payment arrangements because I don't have enough money to pay and they always end up saying the Doc decided not to charge me this visit. (three complete different offices now!) And God always uses my amazed thankfulness to remind me of the shear magnitude of His paying the charges for my sins! Another time I got into a rut with overdrafts at my Bank and they snowballed to over $600 in just a small amount of time. I came in with a $400 paycheck which was all I had to my name and tryed to negotiate w the manager. He was not able to help me and said my account was scheduled to be closed in an hour. He said he would go talk with his manager but not to expect anything because that was a longshot. As he walked over to talk to her I cleary heard God in my head saying,"just ask me Sarah. I'm just waiting to blow your mind. All you have to do is ask." I said "ok Lord. I'm asking. Blow my mind." A few minutes later the manager came back looking very shocked. He said that not only would they accept the $400 I had and completely forgive the other $200 I couldn't pay but that his manager was going to put $40 in my account just in case something else came through later. So I was so beyond blown away! Banks don't do that ever! That was so God. As I thanked the banker and walked out the door feeling
3 feet taller I heard God again say very humorously "See, I just blew your mind.". I just can't believe I'm having such a difficult time trusting Him after ALL THAT!! What is my problem?! Lol...